ive rewritten this one a bunch
that should be a fairly reasonable sign of active decay in my current state
i just kinda ended up vomiting my sorrows into every last draft
its not really worth putting that out there
just crying, and complaining.
selfish really.
selfish to think i deserve what everyone else has.
i dont. i dont. i dont.
i have exactly what i deserve, the energy i put out.
heartbreak and despair
ex-somethings and apricots
im "literally me"ing shipwrecks on forgotten beaches
i will never be like you all
i was meant to be left ashore
personified regret
its all my fault
it will be my fault again
and one day ill never be loved again
its line 3 all over again
live and drink,
-nmiv
Back.