The Post Birthday Melancholy
AKA: Nothings Changed and I Still Feel Like Shit??? (2024 REMASTER)
A lot has happened since my last writing. like. a. lot. remade some
new-old friends. i have a real party soon. one with people who know
who i am on more of a beneath the surface level. nonrelatives
essentially. lets switch to topic based writing for today:
Something is Stirring in the Attic:
one of my aforementioned new-old friends had a (disagreement?) [for
lack of a better word] with an old friend of mine that revealed
some new knowledge on the whole recent drama thing that keeps
everyone i know from being happy. apparently im someone worth
missing. but not worth reaching for. i mourn too, assholes. keep
telling your relatives im just busy when they ask about me though.
im sure thatll feel good when that information makes it around.
i dont mean this in a never speak to me again way [EXCEPT FOR
*YOU*, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE]. im more just angry. angry at being
left behind. angry that you miss something you can easily just
have if you cared enough.
Shimmers of Light Betwixt the Boards:
the amount of people who did stick around is growing at least.
thank you to all of you who still love me as much i love you all.
and if youre reading this entry, keep fighting. you are worth the
pain. in less sappy news, my post birthday life has just finally
returned to normal, which feels good this time around. work for
money, spend on leisure, relax until work, repeat cycle. its
lovely. been playing a lot of birthday games. loving lorns lure.
robor climbing game is fun.
Rotten Wood 'Neath the Floor:
been crying a lot more as of late when no one is around. never was
a dog for crying but i guess life had different plans. adding to
all the living people i mourn daily has taken a toll on my mental.
meditating on the hanged man tarot serves as a reminder to move the
fuck on already. sometimes it works. keep swinging i guess.
Etchings on the Walls:
new art dropping probably with this log entry. was more practice
but i wanted to project all of my fear and anger into something so
now its more vent art. enjoy wntbft4slaughter when that gets
posted.
thank you for reading.
live and drink, friends.
-NMIV
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